I came into college with a conviction and drive. My goal was to be an amazing music educator; I was dead set on changing lives through music. Last fall, I became jaded and realized enough was enough. The music school had a monopoly on my life. I decided I wanted more out of life, so I switched my majors last spring. This in essence was a lifestyle switch for me. I didn't know what to expect this semester. I started the semester with two completely different majors. Political Science and English Literature are a far cry from Music Education.
Now, I have no clue what I want to do with my future. My "old self" would be freaked out. Everything had to be figured out; I prided myself on having a vision. Well, my current self is a-okay with taking it a day at a time. I used to think I understood everything. Now I realize, I really don't.
I only know this moment. As they say, "Yesterday's history and tomorrow's a mystery." While this is a somewhat dismal outlook. I have become more focused on the present. What can I do in this moment? How can I help others? What will help me be successful? The future is a long way off, but the time is now.
I revel in the idea of figuring it out as you go. If we live life in the stereotypical script society hands us, it wouldn't be any fun. We are graduate high school, then college. We get married and get a job and eventually have kids. We cart the kids around to soccer practice and help them with homework and wistfully watch them go into the world one day. Then we grow old and enjoy our golden years.
Does that sound like a bad life? Absolutely not. But I want something a little more, something a little different. I have no clue what it is yet, but I am sure I will figure it out along the way. Half the fun of being 20 is that your script hasn't really been written for you yet. We are writing it right now. Our experiences at this age affect our future. What discipline will you study? What connections will you make? What skills will you develop?
The future comes at us fast, but even though I have no clue what I want to do or where I will end up, I know I will be happy. I will not settle for a job I do not enjoy; I hear too many middle-aged people complain they don't like their job. Moreover, I would like a job that makes a difference in the world.
I fully buy into Ghandi's quote, "Be the change you would like to see in the world." A big movement starts with something small. It grows and grows until it cannot be ignored. I also believe in Martin Luther King Jr.'s quote, "Our lives end the day we stop caring about what matters." My life will end the day I do not have a pulse. No matter how cynical or jaded I may become, I resolve to always keep my altruistic, idealistic nature. I will be a voice for those who do not have one.
I have come a long way in a year. I appreciate everyone in my life and the value of hard work. I am thankful for the talents I have and wish to develop them. Most of all, I want to just do work. I am ready to get my hands dirty and leave this world a better place when I leave it.